if I only knew why?

Someone asked this question on a group I belong to…

I am just wondering……. Why? You know, God is supposed to have a plan with your life. This happening should have a meaning or something….. There must be a reason – what does God want to achieve with this? Is there someone that will be touched and change his/her life? Did this happen because he wants us to be of help to someone? What is the meaning of all of this? Why did it happen? It would be so much easier dealing with this if I knew what God’s plan was – it would give me a reason to get through every day knowing that if I get through one day I might mean something to someone else, or change someones life etc….

I just had to reply…

if you knew what it was, you’d give up sooner, coz you wouldn’t “feel” ready for it.. isn’t that true of all bipo’s whether you believe there is a God or not, we base too much of what we do on how we “feel” about it – kinda dumb if you think how much our “feelings” swing up and down…

as for me, I believe, as one who has been outside of the conventional norms of what a brain / mind / conscious is supposed to be able to comprehend (ie psychotic), I am able to grasp more of the enormity that is God. Same goes with all who have had their “minds blown” – normal society says you’ve lost it, because you no longer think like they do. I say we’ve gained something – we realise there is actually something beyond the constraints of normality.

Sure, most times we’ve been out there in the scariest ways. Voices and pictures and every sound turned up way too high and… well the list could go on. The fact remains though, that there is more out there… and that just shows that science, one of the gods of this age, doesn’t have all the answers.

Collective humankind is forever seeking to know what is coming, as if by knowing they could do something about it. Astrology, fortune telling, stock markets.. Fact is, knowing just serves to make you more fearful. In the case of stock markets, basing your trust on a currency is only looking for trouble..

My takes on things is that God’s way is for us to “trust” enough to accept daily direction, and to act that trust out by showing confidence and not dismay, faith and not fear. He says we’re to call on him when we’re weak… that means, as a bipo, I get the privilege of calling on Him all day long.

Perhaps it’s us, the so-called mad, who believe in God, who are the best example of him using the weak to confound the wise? Yes, I believe it’s not about whether life is tough or not, it’s about how we react, and how we cope, that shows who we trust.

I have so many times in my life shown that I am definitely not the one to trust – my perceptions, my decisions, running my life my way, has been the ultimate disaster (twice divorced, juvenile delinquency, shoplifting, too many years on extreme alcohol, stabbed, shot, a night in jail, affairs, more destroyed lives than you could count… I even attempted to give up and failed). Yet he who is forgiven much loves much.

I have found a way. I accept my daily directions gladly. I’m amazed at how my life is turning out, under the direction of someone who sees the bigger picture.

Thanks for asking that question.

Oh, and you already mean something more … you changed my day, by writing this…